Merry Marathon to Year's End of 2011
I felt overwhelmed with the receiving of gifts. I am a firm believer that it's the thought that counts, but I've grown tired of receiving certain gifts from well-meaning co-workers who are clueless as to what I like or do (or don't do). For example, I received two holiday ornaments for a tree that has not existed in my house in about twenty years. Decorations require storage and time/energy to put them up and take them down. It's a redundancy I no longer need in my life. I have sensitive skin and everything I use is hypo-allergenic and unscented. Hence the perfume and cute liquid soaps and body splashes won't be used. And I've never had my ears pierced ever. This should be confirmed by the fact I never wear ear decorations -- ear clips, studs, clip-ons, but this goes unobserved. I exercise the right to remain silent, smile, and realize I'll make someone in a thrift shop very happy.
The Christmas card paradox has been solved -- you send to me, I'll send to you. If your card is late, yours will be as well. If you don't send one to me throughout a full Christmas season, you are off my card list forever. Hate to be cut-throat, but cards and time are money.
As I sit here and reflect upon the idea of New Year's resolutions, while my neighborhood sounds like a military invasion, I realize I've only had one: get all Christmas chores done and paid for before Thanksgiving. I've lost my fervor for doing this since I found it caused more stress to get a lot done within a short amount of time. Plus, the paying off really didn't help since I get the trifecta of bills prior to Christmas: parish tax, city tax, and my car insurance bill. No sooner I pay off Santa, the "man" is waiting in the shadows. Can't win.
The standard resolution fodder doesn't apply to me. I'm always trying to lose weight and I'm three pounds from my goal weight being worked on since August. Took a detour for the holidays, but I'm back on track. So my gym membership is always in use. It's a pain with the gym newbies in early January, but they always stop attending by the first carnival parade. I don't smoke, drink, and try to save money when I can by only buying things I need and eating at home more instead of going out.
I could try to personalize my resolutions to stop unwanted behavior, such as not worrying so much, which would mean I'd have to be in a coma for the rest of my existence. Or trick myself into doing something I don't do and prefer not to do by making it a resolution, such as do the "big" clean of the entire house. Oh that gets kicked to the curb immediately and frequently (gee, dust all the books in the bookshelf or watch my DVR listing...hmmmm).
Okay, I'll resolve to work on the following during 2012:
Go to the WYES Chocolate Sunday event -- it's one of those things I've wanted to do and talk myself out of every year because it would means spending money and eating fattening treats. This year I will attend, leave the calorie counting on the front porch until I return home, and tell my inner life coach to shut its pie hole for a day.
Actually spend the money I received for Christmas -- I have this habit of putting gift money in my savings with the idea I'll spend it later. And I never do. I've worn black pants until they have turned gray. Padding in my dress shoes is thin and patchy. I realized today it's been six years since I've bought a pair of jeans. Seriously. So I will get thee to an outlet mall and update my wardrobe.
Create a kick-ass costume for the Mad Hatter luncheon -- I have the technology and the creative prowess to pull something off. It may cost extra money, but I've gotten away with cheap for the two years I've attended. Time to do something out of the box.
Read more -- this is always a fight for me since I have a stack of books and newspapers I never get to because I work three jobs and time tends to be scarce. But, I have a car with a CD player so I could listen to books like I used to. And I can find snipets of time to do it.
Write more -- oh my journal needs serious updating and I've been assignment driven for so long. And as you can see from the timing of my last blog entry, I haven't kept up with that very well. Writing skill is a muscle that will grow weak without frequent use. No atrophy here. I'll find a way to make it work.
Visit the Quarter more often -- I don't chastise myself for not going when I was busy every weekend with school or work. Nor do I miss going now at the height of the holidays and bowl game season. I would be out of my mind to go down there with the crowds and lack of parking. But between now and carnival season, I could go and make a day of it with a leisurely stroll and visit my old haunts. Parking fees aren't bad and I'll have some free time before next semester.
Find my happy place -- okay, that sounds weird to me as I type it out, but it's true. This year I've felt like a machine with completing tasks and getting others done like they were on a never-ending assembly line. I didn't call friends like I should have or made time for visits. I haven't gone to a movie in years. I only went one day to Jazz Fest this year. I attended a few charity events, but I've made little time for myself to do things that won't make me money, skinny, or productive. I need to make more time for pampering, chilling, and withdrawing into myself for inner balance.
I think I have enough to keep me busy for 2012. I've noticed a few folks have wished 2011 to be over because it was "a bad year" for them. Just remember, we can't control the cards we're dealt -- we can only play them the best we can. Don't say you can't handle one more bad thing because one more will come and then what? Cut the negative people out of your life who insist on holding you back or keeping you down. Focus on what is working positive in your life at that moment. Bad will come back, but you'll be stronger to face it.
I hope you all have a safe, happy, and hopeful 2012. And let's see how accurate Mayan predictions truly are!
Annnd, it's midnight and explosions have commenced. Happy New Year!
Travel light,
Kat
Grocery Checkout - Summer Meal Series: Zoes Kitchen
I've wanted to do a food blog called "Grocery Checkout" for a long time, but there has always been something else demanding my attention. I'm on a three-day weekend and today clearly exemplifies why I felt the need to do this.
If you live in the South, or in Louisiana, I don't need to go into an explanation of how hot it is, or that today is a "heat wave" as all the excited meteorologists love to drone on about. It's hot everywhere you go and the humidity takes on a life form all its own. It is the energy-zapping dripping nemesis that acts like a playground bully or a member of the IRS: you will succumb to its clutches unable to escape.
This heat has been unbearable to the point I turned off my gas stove and oven and they shall remain off until fall. Since Memorial Day, we've existed on salads, items we can microwave, or get from different restaurants. You can fall into a rut of eating the same things which we have almost reached the point of microwave fatigue.
Of course, there are those who propose grilling outdoors for a meal option, boasting their smokers and propane-tanked grills to serve everything from veggies to a side of beef. I'll address those freakish thoughts here. That won't work for me for a few reasons. Grilling outdoors means (and I'm saying this sarcastically slow) being..in...the...heat. Don't tell me it's cooler in the evenings. Sweat would say otherwise. Plus, I don't have a significant other to "persuade" to go outside to do all the pleasant tasks of prepping the grill, stoking the fire, grilling the food, and doing all the assorted clean up...in...the...heat. Anything I do is up to me -- the curse of being an independent woman.
So I decided to let the world do my cooking, or at least some of the local eateries I've never checked out. I'll post them when I find some interesting entrees to have at home that don't require turning on an oven, going through a fast-food drive thru, or microwaving a frozen dinner.
I came across Zoes Kitchen by accident. The restaurant is next door to a coffee place nestled in a strip mall off Old Metairie Road. You can't tell what kind of food they serve from their striped awing sign. I went online and reviewed their menu. The idea of grilled food without doing the grilling part sold me on trying it. I did a "dry run" this past week for dinner and thought this 4th of July weekend would be ideal to stock up on meals so I could spend a couple of days at home.
My only warning to those who eat here or pick up food: it takes time for a reason. I got a bit impatient when I didn't get my dinner quick enough, but this is not "fast food". Even picking up the "dinner for four" took time, but it is worth it.
I'll probably try the hummus on my next visit. It has a slew of Mediterranean items and a kid's menu which boasts (get this) grilled chicken tenders! It's worth a try wherever you are and, since it's a chain, you may find one in your area.
701 Metairie Rd, Suite 1A103
Metairie, LA 70005
Mad Hatter's Luncheon - Part III - the genesis of my hat
Total amount for "hat" and ribbon: $9.17 (table decoration cost 6.49 on sale)
One tiny piece of ribbon left, so I elaborated the top with a final bow, which I think came out nice.
Now it was a matter of getting through the next few days until that Sunday when I would transport my hat to Cajun country and have an unexpected adventure.
Mad Hatter's Luncheon Pictures Part II NaBranChri
"Mad Hatters Goes Couture" - CLB pics part 1
Blogging about Vlogging
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fKV0XjKBffg
As I've said before, I can always count on one of two things whenever I take vacation time: a health issue or something breaking down. It's grass season so I'm dealing with allergies. That's one. And, as of last night, my computer software to burn video of my last speech decided not to work. I literally burned one DVD with no problem and have not been able to repeat the process. I am baffled.
I've been working with a Flip, a digital camcorder the size of a smart phone, to record myself giving speeches and decided to dabble a bit more into it last night. I don't plan on making a habit of this, but I thought I'd try out the Blogger version of showing video within my blog. It's a step, a small one, to help me feel a bit more comfortable in my own skin.
I went from cute little girl to awkward teen to the ever-critical woman heading for middle age. I have flaws aplenty, or so I think. I can mentally pinpoint every dark circle, age spot, dimple, excess fat, and discolored hair. Now, I feel I looked better in the past. My past self would have argued I didn't look right back then. I suppose with hormones and evolution comes a fractured vanity that judges far more harshly than before. And in five years, or a week from today, I'll reason I looked better now than in the future. It's such a whacked irrationality.
But I have to get past it. I can't cringe and avoid looking at myself in video form if I'm going to improve my speech-giving ways. How can I stand in front of a group of people and exude confidence in whatever I'm saying if I don't feel it? Or address problems in delivering a speech if I don't see myself give one in playback form?
I viewed my last speech last night. Honestly, it wasn't as bad as I thought. I gave the speech with parts of trepidation -- mental hiccups, waves of inner anxiousness of getting to the next point, and trying to remember everything. Still, I hung in there and made the most of the time. I had good feedback from the club for the most part. Doing a speech makes you feel like you're drowning and watching a recording of it gives you a buoy of sorts.
The video I've uploaded into the blog is a video postcard relaying a story based on the recent event of moving. I wanted to see how I'd do with a shorter amount of time, with nothing prepared, and looking as I would normally do with casual clothes and no makeup. Here's what I discovered in viewing the three minute clip:
I blink too much. Geez, I look as though I have a facial tick. Guess it could be nerves or my allergies, but I didn't have any preconceived fears of filming. In fact, the final version was after a fourth or fifth take. Note to self: steady gaze and settle down.
Voice needs inflection. I've already heard that in the critiques of my previous speeches: use more inflection; do everything bigger on camera. Easier said than done when you live your life as a mild-mannered person who never has the occasion to sound or act like a cartoon character. I've always viewed doing the DAHHLLLINGG! mode as being forced, fake, and shoving myself into another's space in the most obnoxious way. On the fringes, in the background, observing the action, and making my presence through quiet conversation...that's me. I guess the power of vocal variety will come with time and practice.
I'm not fat. Another preoccupation of mine is whether I look pudgy, overweight, and the like. Maybe it was the lighting, but I don't see anything that would make me ashamed of how I looked in the clip. Always room for improvement, but nothing there that would make me reach for the "delete" button.
I'm articulate. I'm not sure why I don't have the Southern/New Orleans accent that was present in certain members of my family. If I have one, it's subtle. It's more audible when I tired or in a rush. It's nothing I consciously work on, but I have a noticeable absence of an accent. At least I'm not into "like" and "ya know" as crutch words. I try to focus on the storytelling and choose my words carefully. Perhaps that translates into how I speak. I'm happy I don't sound like a moron.
I'm currently working on my next speech which I may give this coming week after the Mardi Gras holiday. It's been a nice vacation despite allergies and computer issues. I found a workaround on connecting the video to my blog through YouTube how-to library. After a few hours, I learned my video was "too big" to upload directly to Blogger. Yet, I can link from YouTube to Blogger without issue. Technology is very confusing.
At any rate, enjoy the video. Cannot say they'll be plenty more where that came from, but it's a start.
Take care and travel light.
Peace and Light - Shelby Leonhard
One of my closest friend's stepfather was in the military years ago. He had the chance to talk with the base's medical examiner one day. Her stepfather couldn't understand why anyone would want to go into such a depressing and horrifying line of work. He asked the doctor what motivated him to do what he did on a daily basis.
The coroner related why he worked in his profession in these terms. He held up both his hands as though he wore surgical gloves.
"This is my house," he said. "Everyone has one. The human body is the house for your soul. Whenever I enter someone's house, I am very respectful. I must go in to find out how and why they left. And if I'm lucky, I can learn something that may help others stay in their houses a bit longer."
Shelby Leonhard could no longer stay in her house. She died today with her family around her.
Today we received email from a few sources in and outside the company about the news. My company will have the blood drive on March 3rd, in Shelby's memory, and hopefully help those in need of blood donations.
Not everyone knew Shelby personally, but her presence is felt in many places. Tonight I went to my cardio kickboxing class and happened to get to the exercise room a few minutes early. There was a new student talking with Sherian, our instructor. They were discussing how the gym needed to get better boxing bags.
"I wasn't going to come tonight," the woman told Sherian. "I've been upset all day and had to work it out." Her daughter was one of Shelby's classmates.
In that moment, I realized how small this big town is as far as degrees of separation of knowing people. I also understand her feelings because we've all been there.
We have all been a Shelby: a 14-year old student with aspirations of doing grand things and anxiously anticipating the next level of maturity. Driver's permit. School dances. The next big blockbuster hit over the summer.
We have all known a Shelby: a classmate who people want to be around and knows all the answers. Respectful. Likable. Studious. Fun to be around.
We have all lost a Shelby: through violence or illness or natural circumstances. A close relative. A close friend. A classmate. Old people have lived long and as the age comes closer to our own, the person becomes "so young". Shelby's category: too young.
I find grief to be more about emotional paper cuts than hemorrhages. I can't tell you how many times I've heard from friends on how traumatic they found going through their day and believing, just for an instant, that their loved one was still alive. It was as easy as turning down a familiar street or picking up the phone and absentmindedly dialing their number. The realization of this act is painful. Her loss will be felt for a long time and there will be many moments of this shared by many people.
I will close this entry with the official statement from the Leonhard family sent to us today:
Last night, our beautiful, brave and beloved Shelby went into the arms of God. It was a peaceful ending in a room filled with love.
Our family wishes to sincerely thank each and every one of you for the many prayers and love you have showered on our precious daughter and our family. Please continue to pray for us, especially Barrett and Reese. Please pray that Shelby's loving soul is at peace.
We would ask also that you continue to praise God. He gave us such a precious gift and we feel privileged to have taken this journey with Shelby and with all of you. She belongs to us all, but above all, she belongs now, to God.
With all of our love,
The Leonhards
Heart Day - Shelby Leonhard
Today's Valentine's Day. Candy Day. Celebration of St. Valentine...execution of the saint or the massacre...take your pick.
This year was going to be different than just eating chocolate and making bad jokes. I planned today to donate platelets for Shelby Leonhard (please Google her for more current information).
The call had been put out in cyberspace on the 14-year old's condition: non-hodgkin's lymphoma and in need of whole blood and platelet donations. My company works closely with Shelby's father and a blood drive is being planned. I learned my blood type would be useful for platelet donation. I've never donated platelets. I called the Blood Center and made an appointment to go today after work to do it.
Oddly enough there wasn't much information on the internet about the actual process. I received a tutorial when I arrived at the center this evening:
Apheresis (pronounced a-for-ee-sis) is a different procedure from the regular whole blood donation I was used to doing. If you've donated blood at a drive or at one of the blood mobiles, you know the routine: fill out questions about your personal love life, the times and places you've traveled abroad, and your overall health. Then you have the iron content in your blood tested by a finger lancet test. If you pass, you then get to spend some quality time bleeding into a bag, squeezing a stress ball, and afterwards drink fruit juice and eat cool junk food.
Apheresis, or platelet donation, is a newer medical procedure. With a whole blood donation, gravity does the work through an IV tube into an awaiting bag. This procedure uses a computerized centrifuge where the blood is divided into various parts as it's being drawn: red blood cells, white blood cells, plasma, and platelets. For those playing the "I need to know everything" game -red carries oxygen; white fights infection; plasma brings blood take-out; and platelets clot the works.
The "screening" process is where I got disqualified. First they check a blood donor's veins to see how strong they are to withstand the process. My veins are collapsible and wouldn't be good for it. Had I passed, then I would have had a test on the amount of platelets in a blood sample. Next step would have been being connected to the machine where blood would have been drawn, centrifuged, and saline re-entered to replace the blood taken.
Those who benefit from platelet donations are patients with blood disorders or cancer, newborns, burn victims, and those who have undergone transplant or cardiovascular surgery.
My "Plan B" is to donate blood during my company's blood drive. In a show of solidarity, there have been a few blood drives this past weekend for Shelby: Children's Hospital, Ochsner Hospital, and the Plant Gallery. Even though my blood type is not compatible to give to Shelby directly, any amount of blood donated will go towards her total. In other words, for every unit she uses and gets replaced through donation is one less unit on her medical expenses. And, if it is A negative or a compatible match, it will go directly for her use.
Shelby's current condition is unknown except that she is fighting and needs help from the public to give her direct assistance and replenish the stores. Twitter and the local media have been good getting the word out. Shelby is a loving daughter, a big sister, and a student at Sacred Heart. Her father is a good man and wants her to smile again. If you can help, please do.
And for those who don't live around here, I'm sure there's a person like Shelby in your world who needs help and would benefit from your support. I can't think of a better way to show how much your heart holds than to give and not count the cost.
Happy Valentine's Day and travel light.
New Year, New Posts - Jewels Blog Guest Spot
I've spent the last couple of hours in mental meltdown trying to crack the "find my own blog" code. Have you ever fought with Blogger...and won? I finally got through and was able to post what I hope will be a good read for you.
I was "introduced" to Jewels (aka Julie Anne Rhodes) by my friend and fellow foodie Valerie Vallot. Val was fortunate enough to be selected for a recipe that was featured in Julie Anne's blog (a carrot ginger beer recipe, I believe).
Jewels asked for submissions for restaurant reviews as a guest blogger ("restaurant spy") on her blog. I contacted her last November on the details. New Orleans is a culinary treasure trove and I had her full support in the effort. Where to begin? I decided to go with my latest love which is Fat Hen Grill in Harahan. The URL above will take you to my entry. Writing about food is just as fun as eating the food I write about. Please check out Jewels' blog (and Fat Hen Grill if you're local).
Thank you, Jewels, for your encouragement and support of my writing. You are a beautiful person...inside and out!